Another year came and went. Holy shit. It felt longer than ever but on the same token it passed by like a breeze.
Adopted two rescue kittens: Gomez and Judas
Made a bucket list
Got off my ass and launched my etsy store. And stuff sold!
Discovered my love of the bike and got over my fear of being near moving cars
Found a lot of cool dead things for my collection
Learned how to pin bug specimens
Found and returned a wallet
Rescued a baby bunny and moved it to safety
Watched someone get engaged under the LOVE sign in Philadelphia
Got fitted for and bought a GOOD bra. My tits felt like they could conquer the world. Why did I wait this long? Who the hell knows.
Sent out a metric TON of snail mail.
My kid graduated from pre-k and started K. (finally!) – She also started Karate.
Reconnected with a friend I had not spoken to in over 10 years.
Crazy ass weather… Hurricane Sandy was some scary shit.
Cut off a friend I love very much due to substance abuse – I miss him.
Getting to spend Reza’s birthday in San Diego, seeing all my old friends and finally getting some real Mexican food.
Another successful collaboration with Cupkozy (Buy one here!)
(this was our xmas postcard this year… figured since most people already got theirs I can share it now)
Stats: Josh and I celebrated 11 years together and our 8 year wedding anniversary. Reza turned 6, Josh and I turned 38…. buncha geezers.
Met For The First Time: Diana, Angie and Bianca, both who I have known online for a while but never in person. Both were awesome. Can I say how awesome it is to meet e-friends in person? It’s awesome. Oh and my nephew Ari.
Painted my first vinyl figures
Created a print for fabric (note to self: DO MORE)
Painted a lot of watercolor art
Sent out more mail this year than I ever have.
Got backstage at a hair metal show
Discovered my love for riding my bike
Rode over 100 miles on said bike in one week
Rode a bike through a cemetery
Sent a very heartfelt email to someone who didn’t know me but needed it.
Visitors: Tom, Chris, Bret & Gayle, Diana, Griselda, Bee + the kids, Liz, Mom & Dad
Traveled to/places seen: New York City, Sleepy Hollow, New Hope, Philadelphia, San Diego.
Shows: The Black Keys, Lita Ford – Poison – Def Leppard (on one bill!), Sigur Ros, Dead Can Dance, Godspeed You! Black Emperor and Amon Tobin – Amon Tobin is hands down the best of the year.
Lost: Nena. After 13 years of companionship we said goodbye to our little chi-hoo-dog. That was a really rough couple of weeks for me cause she was there before Josh and Reza… Still feels like a punch to the gut.
Addicted: nail polish, antique hunting, Spotify, cycling, finding dead things, Pinterest, watercolors, smoothie making, oil cleansing method for the skin,
Music I listened to on repeat:
This is the thing about the “end of the year” playlist. Technically they’re supposed to be the best of 2012. Some of these did not come out this year but I got into them late in the game. They make my playlist anyway, I make the rules here. It’s a whole lot of songs that don’t belong together but whatever. If you are on spotify, you can listen to my fav tracks here.
Prurien† – ††† (Crosses) <--- the best new release this year as far as I am concerned.
Warrior - Kimbra
Cut It Out - Kitten
Violent - The New Division
Kill Your Heroes - AWOLnation
Terrorbird - Author & Punisher
Spheres Of Fury - HECQ + Exillon
Professional Griefers - deadmau5 + Gerard Way
L'amour - Bingo Players
Kick Out The Epic Motherfucker - Dada Life
The Night Out - Martin Solveig
Vescath - Enabl.ed
Rosemary - Deftones
Memories Of The Future - Handsome Furs
Baalbek - Trifonic (Hecq remix)
They Disappear Into The Palms - Lights Out Asia
...For A Void - Bitcrush
4 Days - Snow In Mexico (not available on Spotify) listen here
Starfield – The New Division (not available on Spotify) listen here
The last two are amazing, shame they are not on Spotify to complete the playlist but they needed to be mentioned
And about me…
All things considering, I was pretty inspired. I made a lot more art this year than in previous years. I also sold a lot of it too which is always flattering that people feel it’s purchase worthy. I did not make enough but right now there is a high tide and I am riding it as long as it will let me. Here are just a couple of pieces I did that stuck out…
I came to a realization that there are things that really stimulate and make me feel whole. Things that agree with me and things that don’t. It’s nice to be that intuitive with yourself that you can see those things instead of having them pointed out to you. Instead of sharing it all, I am just going to do. No one likes preachy types and lord knows there is A LOT of that going around these days.
I switched up my approach to social media and how I use it. Trimming the fat was so necessary.
Last year I said I was going to stop writing and living for others. Do I feel like I accomplished that? Absolutely.
My family? Awesome. Our marriage? Stronger than ever.
Josh and I had a small rough patch this year but it was sorted out.
Reza’s school schedule is the biggest joke and 2.5 hours doesn’t allow me much personal time.
Last year I said I was going to lose weight. I did… and gained it and lost it, and gained it…
Realizing that people are not who you thought they are/were
I will say it. I try to see the good in everything, that there is a lesson to be learned but that outlook can be exhausting at times. We pretty much came to the conclusion that we need to get out of NJ and the day cannot come soon enough. It’s hard to feel that lightness when you have that heavy anvil on your shoulders. Being somewhere you don’t like or thrive is not something I wish on anyone.
So what will 2013 bring? No resolutions, only goals and hopes…..
Get out of NJ
Acquire strength in the body and peace in the mind
Write more letters
Speak with freedom and honesty
Drive less, ride hard
Make more art and put it out there. No more comparing, fearing criticism.
Admit and accept that there are things I do well and stop being a pussy about it.
Step out of my comfort zone.
2013 is going to be a better year, hopefully a very exciting one. I have a feeling. Catch you on the other side.